Baptized In Madness

[Verse 1]
I lost my mind on chemicals and chaos, Tuesday night
Reality exploded into fragments, wrong and right
Became the same thing, everything became nothing at all
I hit the bottom so hard I broke through the floor and continued to fall
Into madness, into psychosis, into a hell I can't describe
They locked me up to keep me safe, to help me survive
The worst week of my life strapped to a hospital bed
Baptized in madness - I should be dead
[Pre-Hook]
But something happened in that darkness, in that break from sanity
I saw clearly for the first time what my life was meant to be
When the drugs left and the smoke cleared from my broken mind
I found purpose in the ashes - left addiction behind
[Hook]
I was baptized in madness, drowned in my addiction
Came up with a mission, found my conviction
That I'd never go back, never touch that poison again
Baptized in madness - that's where my crusade began
The worst thing I ever went through became my greatest gift
Baptized in madness - that's what gave me the lift
Out of the darkness into a life with meaning and fire
Baptized in madness - rose from the mire
[Verse 2]
Psychosis is a teacher that you never want to meet
It strips away your ego, brings you to your feet
Begging for relief, for sanity, for one more chance
I made a deal with God during that psychotic dance
With death, with madness, with permanent insanity
If you get me out of this, I'll spend my life helping humanity
Never waste another day on drugs or escape or hiding from pain
I was baptized in madness - and I'm never going back again
[Verse 3]
White walls and medication, nurses checking every hour
Strapped down and broken, stripped of all my power
Except the power to choose what happens when I get out
Will I learn the lesson or will I continue to doubt
That I need to change? I chose the lesson, chose the pain
As my teacher, chose to let the madness stain
My memory forever so I never forget what's at stake
Baptized in madness - I was finally awake
[Bridge]
They say you find God in your lowest moment
I found my purpose when my mind was broken, bent
Beyond recognition, beyond what I thought I could survive
But survival gave me something - a reason to be alive
Not just existing but crusading, not just breathing but serving
What I went through wasn't wasted, wasn't undeserving
Of meaning - it became the fuel for everything I'd build
Baptized in madness - my purpose was fulfilled
[Verse 4]
Now when temptation whispers, when the darkness calls me back
I remember that hospital bed, I remember that attack
On my sanity that nearly took me out permanently
That memory is my shield, my sword, my guarantee
That I'll never touch that shit again, never play that game
Baptized in madness - I remember the shame
The fear, the loss of control, the complete collapse
That one memory prevents relapses
[Verse 5]
I'm grateful for the madness now, though I'd never want to repeat it
The worst experience of my life is the reason I can beat
Any temptation, any urge, any rationalization my mind creates
Baptized in madness - I remember the stakes
Are life and death, sanity and psychosis, purpose and waste
I choose life every single day with the bitter taste
Of madness still fresh enough in my memory to keep me straight
Baptized in madness - that's my fate
[Hook]
I was baptized in madness, drowned in my addiction
Came up with a mission, found my conviction
That I'd never go back, never touch that poison again
Baptized in madness - that's where my crusade began
The worst thing I ever went through became my greatest gift
Baptized in madness - that's what gave me the lift
Out of the darkness into a life with meaning and fire
Baptized in madness - rose from the mire
[Outro]
Sometimes you need to lose your mind to find your purpose
Sometimes rock bottom is the only thing that's worth this
Kind of transformation, this kind of complete rebirth
Baptized in madness gave my life worth
Beyond what I could've imagined when I was high
Baptized in madness taught me how to fly
Sober, clear, focused, alive with mission and meaning
Baptized in madness - now I'm finally seeing
What I'm meant to do with this one life I've got
Baptized in madness - I learned a lot
About who I am, what I'm made of, what I can survive
The worst week of my life is why I'm truly alive
Today, sober, purposeful, on a crusade that won't end
Baptized in madness - that's where I transcend
The man I was into the man I had to become
Baptized in madness - the war is won
Never again
Forever sober
Forever on mission
Baptized in madness
Reborn in purpose